February 10,1948
It's been almost three years; why don't they stop? How long will I be plagued with dreams about the past? Nearly every night I dream I'm back in the camp with Moniek, and all the guards around me. But shouldn't they have stopped by now? Why do they continue, even after so long?
I dreamt of Buchenwald again last night. It's not like it's on my mind all day; I'm not constantly thinking about the war, so why am I dreaming about it? I hope it doesn't go on like this forever; I'd rather dream about other things, things that are happening now, not in the past.
On a brighter note, I've just started working full time. Mrs. Halpbern thinks it's still too early, that I should go to school for awhile longer first, and get more of an education. But luckily Mr. Halpbern agrees with me that I should start working as soon as possible. I went to the interview and got hired, and now I'm being paid eighteen dollars a week at a nearby furniture store. It feels great to be earning money for myself, and to be able to pay the Halpberns back for all the help they've given me.
Max and Kurt aren't really happy about my decision, even though I told them I'm taking night school, to get a diploma as an accountant. They don't understand, they think I'm in too big of a rush. But the Halpberns have done enough for me; they have two children of their own and I don't want to be burden.
Am I the only one aside from Mr. Halpbern who thinks this is a good time to start working? Everyone says it's too early- are they right? They can't be; the most important thing right now is becoming independent. And I'm taking night school, so I am still learning, so why are Kurt and Max and Mrs. Halpbern making such a fuss?
More than anything right now I want to become a true Canadian. Don't all the orphans who came here?
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